deeper, darker

“Behind the eyes, behind the grin, behind the show. This is where the dark things go.”

fundamental friends

I just have to say this while it’s on my mind.

My friend, Suse, was in town this weekend and it reminded me of how certain people can make your life drastically better. You know, those who are more than just filler friends. One who take friendship to the next level with their insight and range of situations you can enjoy them in. The friends who can you do something or nothing with and still feel comfortable and at “home” with.

So I started thinking about the others who I feel that with and just wanted to state it publicly.

Allen, Caroline, Crys, Dawne, Jessica, Melissa, Sara, Tisa, Tony, and I’m sure I’m forgetting one or two… but you all are missed, every day of my life. Don’t let my absence, or lack of effort sometimes, ever make you think otherwise. You all are a part of a want inside me that is so close to a need.

Love you.

Remember Tomorrow

“My favorite memories are the ones we haven’t made yet.”

Momentary

“Do you really want to know me or project thoughts that stick for the moment?”

Held

“There’s depression in your eyes, but never within your arms.”

Personally Placed

“Who says we need personal space? Most of my life’s best times have been within talking distance of others.”

“Please stop bleeding me. Our dreams, trickingly down our seam.”

Rules of Relationships #1

Open Door Policy

“There must be an open-door policy. Love is not always a planned thing, neither should your togetherness be. Respect scheduling to a healthy degree, but remember that spontaneity can reveal unspoken desires as well as hidden truths.”

femininity

If this isn’t the balance between an independent woman and fulfilling our biological roles, I don’t know what is…

“I do not want to be the leader. I refuse to be the leader. I want to live darkly and richly in my femaleness. I want a man lying over me, always over me. His will, his pleasure, his desire, his life, his work, his sexuality the touchstone, the command, my pivot. I don’t mind working, holding my ground intellectually, artistically; but as a woman, oh, God, as a woman I want to be dominated. I don’t mind being told to stand on my own feet, not to cling, be all that I am capable of doing, but I am going to be pursued, fucked, possessed by the will of a male at his time, his bidding.”
–Anais Nin

Can’t Forget the Familiar

“I know what love feels like, but sometimes, wish I didn’t.”